Not sure how true this statement is, but today I found out that you can't reconnect with some old friends again. I wrote a letter to a friend that I hadn't talked to in almost 10 years. She told me 10 years ago that we couldn't be friends anymore because the person she was with didn't like me. I respected her wishes and told her I understood.
Well my sister/soulmate passed away in December 2009 and I thought about how much I missed my friend and how life can be taken away so quickly from you. So I decided to reconnect with her. I found her ex boyfriend and found out how much her life had changed since the last time I had talked to her. So I thought maybe I would write her a letter and let her know I was thinking of her and I hope she was doing well. I wrote one letter and found out afterwards that she had moved. So I rewrote the letter again and sent it to her new address. I waited to see if I would get a letter back or a phone call. Nothing for 2 weeks.
Today I found out from her ex that she received both my letters. She will not be contacting me. She doesn't want to open back up the part of her life that I was in. I am sad to hear this, but I understand. Well I understand, but I don't understand. I understand she doesn't want to go backwards, but I mean the time of her life I was in was a good time as far as I can remember. We were there for one another through some rough stuff and good stuff. I guess she must have seen it another way.
I wish her well. I hope that her life gets in order and that things work out for her and her kids. I hope she gets away from the troubles she has been having and that she sees that there is a better way to enjoy life. I miss her everyday, but at least I know she is still out there.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Saturday, September 11, 2010
9-11-2001
So everyone says "Never Forget 9/11" I couldn't forget that day if I wanted. 9/11 is one memory I can remember pretty well.
I got up for work that morning. I was living in Vegas and I worked for a timeshare company in the collections department. I was their admin. I walked into the living room of the 4 bedroom house I rented with my mom and step- dad. My grandparents were in town visiting from Parhump, NV. Everyone, but my 2 kids, were in the living room glued to the television. My grandmother was crying and my grandfather was sitting next to her holding her hand. On my step-dad's big screen television was the North Tower of the WTC on fire. I wasn't in shock as I much as I just thought it was a bad flight and wasn't a terrorist act. That it was just a simple plane crash. Before our eyes we watched the second plane crash into the South Tower of the WTC. We all gasped and stared in shock at the screen.
I had been reading the series "Left Behind" and I freaked. I mean whose first thought would have been terrorists acts. I thought the rapture had come and that was the excuse for the planes crashing into the buildings. I ran to check and see that my kids were in bed. I know looking back now that it was stupid, but hey I was into book 5 of that series and it just made sense to me at the time.
I went back into the living room and we watched the plane crash over and over again. (The news just kept showing it and we couldn't take our eyes off of it.) The news broke away and told us about the Pentagon being attacked. Then in shock we watched the WTC tower fall. We heard about the crash of Flight 93 and hoped that there wouldn't be anymore that day.
I rode to work with my step-dad barely talking. I was in such shock. My boss had me call everyone and tell them not to come into work. I had a lunch date that day so I had my step-dad stop by my dates work so that I could tell him I wasn't at work for that day and I had to cancel. He came by my house after work and we all watched on the television and talked about what we saw.
I cried that night when I went to bed. I just couldn't believe what I had saw. I was scared for my children in a world like this. All I could think was would there be more attacks. Were my family and friends going to be safe?
9/11 changed America because it wasn't an attack on the military, but an attack on American people. People just going about their everyday lives and they were killed by an act of terrorism. An act by an extreme religious group. Everything in the United States changed. People didn't feel safe anymore. I don't know how safe the United States feels now. I think terrorism and terrorist will always worry the people of the United States.
I think everyone in the whole world was effected by 9/11. Other countries saw that America could be attacked and if they could other countries could be too. Other countries worried about the fact that America was attacked and they could be next.
The world is a scary place. Thanks to Al-Qaeda America learned that they aren't as safe as they thought they were.
I got up for work that morning. I was living in Vegas and I worked for a timeshare company in the collections department. I was their admin. I walked into the living room of the 4 bedroom house I rented with my mom and step- dad. My grandparents were in town visiting from Parhump, NV. Everyone, but my 2 kids, were in the living room glued to the television. My grandmother was crying and my grandfather was sitting next to her holding her hand. On my step-dad's big screen television was the North Tower of the WTC on fire. I wasn't in shock as I much as I just thought it was a bad flight and wasn't a terrorist act. That it was just a simple plane crash. Before our eyes we watched the second plane crash into the South Tower of the WTC. We all gasped and stared in shock at the screen.
I had been reading the series "Left Behind" and I freaked. I mean whose first thought would have been terrorists acts. I thought the rapture had come and that was the excuse for the planes crashing into the buildings. I ran to check and see that my kids were in bed. I know looking back now that it was stupid, but hey I was into book 5 of that series and it just made sense to me at the time.
I went back into the living room and we watched the plane crash over and over again. (The news just kept showing it and we couldn't take our eyes off of it.) The news broke away and told us about the Pentagon being attacked. Then in shock we watched the WTC tower fall. We heard about the crash of Flight 93 and hoped that there wouldn't be anymore that day.
I rode to work with my step-dad barely talking. I was in such shock. My boss had me call everyone and tell them not to come into work. I had a lunch date that day so I had my step-dad stop by my dates work so that I could tell him I wasn't at work for that day and I had to cancel. He came by my house after work and we all watched on the television and talked about what we saw.
I cried that night when I went to bed. I just couldn't believe what I had saw. I was scared for my children in a world like this. All I could think was would there be more attacks. Were my family and friends going to be safe?
9/11 changed America because it wasn't an attack on the military, but an attack on American people. People just going about their everyday lives and they were killed by an act of terrorism. An act by an extreme religious group. Everything in the United States changed. People didn't feel safe anymore. I don't know how safe the United States feels now. I think terrorism and terrorist will always worry the people of the United States.
I think everyone in the whole world was effected by 9/11. Other countries saw that America could be attacked and if they could other countries could be too. Other countries worried about the fact that America was attacked and they could be next.
The world is a scary place. Thanks to Al-Qaeda America learned that they aren't as safe as they thought they were.
Monday, September 6, 2010
Crazy Week
This week as been crazy. All 4 of the oldest kids now go to school. I am working hard on my school work. Macroeconomics is driving me crazy. I just can't get the hang of it. I hate it so much. I really need to buckle down and get better grades on my next 3 test. The highest I have got is a 70 and that was on one test. Ugg.
Tomorrow we are doing some heavy house cleaning. On Tuesday we are getting a kitten if all goes well. We are going to name him Hoyt after the True Blood TV character. We have a dog named Tara after True Blood TV show so we thought we would stay with the theme.
The thing that sucks this week is we have to call the vet on our dog Popcorn to have him looked at. He is in his 20's and it is finally starting to show. He is going deaf, loosing hearing, loosing sense of smell and starting to get aggressive. We don't want him to have to suffer so we are going to talk to the vet and see if it is time to put him down. I really don't want to if that is what it comes down to, but I don't want him to be in pain either. We have had him since my oldest was 6 and she is now 16 almost 17 years old. When we got him they told us he was 12 or 13 years old. It is really going to be hard.
Well I better get some sleep. I have alot to do tomorrow because starting Tuesday we are buckling down on school stuff.
Tomorrow we are doing some heavy house cleaning. On Tuesday we are getting a kitten if all goes well. We are going to name him Hoyt after the True Blood TV character. We have a dog named Tara after True Blood TV show so we thought we would stay with the theme.
The thing that sucks this week is we have to call the vet on our dog Popcorn to have him looked at. He is in his 20's and it is finally starting to show. He is going deaf, loosing hearing, loosing sense of smell and starting to get aggressive. We don't want him to have to suffer so we are going to talk to the vet and see if it is time to put him down. I really don't want to if that is what it comes down to, but I don't want him to be in pain either. We have had him since my oldest was 6 and she is now 16 almost 17 years old. When we got him they told us he was 12 or 13 years old. It is really going to be hard.
Well I better get some sleep. I have alot to do tomorrow because starting Tuesday we are buckling down on school stuff.
Thursday, September 2, 2010
School Work and Other Things
So I haven't posted in 2 days. School work and being sick has slowed me down. I am feeling better today even though I was up till 2am working on Macro homework. Man this class is going to kick my butt. But I am going to do it no matter what.
Today is International 90210 Day. I loved watching the original series when it was one. I even caught a rerun when I see them on Soapnet. I just have the first season and pilot on DVD. I loved the conflict and finding out if Brenda was going to be an idiot or not. The only time the series made me mad was when they decided to have Ray abuse Donna. I thought that was such crap. Why did the blue collar guy have to be the abuser? Why couldn't the abuse be a middle class or rich kid? I liked Ray and was really upset when he left the show. I loved every episode and was sad when the show ended. I thought they could have done 1 more season and tied up Kelly and Dylan's storyline, but it was nice it went out with Donna and David getting married. They were meant to be together.
Well back to school work. Everyone enjoy International 90210 day.
Today is International 90210 Day. I loved watching the original series when it was one. I even caught a rerun when I see them on Soapnet. I just have the first season and pilot on DVD. I loved the conflict and finding out if Brenda was going to be an idiot or not. The only time the series made me mad was when they decided to have Ray abuse Donna. I thought that was such crap. Why did the blue collar guy have to be the abuser? Why couldn't the abuse be a middle class or rich kid? I liked Ray and was really upset when he left the show. I loved every episode and was sad when the show ended. I thought they could have done 1 more season and tied up Kelly and Dylan's storyline, but it was nice it went out with Donna and David getting married. They were meant to be together.
Well back to school work. Everyone enjoy International 90210 day.
9-02-10
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